i felt an indescribable pain as i said those words.
it would be best as nothing can be done to change
the bad habits, for both you and i.
if there was a remedy for it, it would have been
done long ago. until now, i still can remember
when were the times i was unhappy.
thank you, and sorry.
how come i do not have the heart to blog anymore? haix..
studies are worrying me...
tomorrow is kai hua and my HOM sharing.
im afraid. D:
yes. im back in singapore. after a long stay there.
okay, my mood was dashed today by some bitch
in my house. no word of apology when she fumbled
the fizzling hot gravy on my shirt. i was like f.
i have only worn it for 10minutes, after changing from
my long sleeve shirt. i really slept in the plane for
1hr 40mins at least, and back slept again at JB home..
on the way back slept again. i must be really tired,
as i turned in at only 5.15am this morning, woke up
at 7am as my flight was at 9.55am.
when i came back today, i asked her if the internet
portal was working already, because my port always
has problems connecting at times, and she shouted
what port what port! as if i owed her a million bucks.
i hate her because of her this fking attitude, which
really sucks to the core. f.
SABAH is a boring place. the hotel is like so damn
budget one, but the transport really ex.
from airport to hotel 40, today back to airport 70.
tour for 2 days adding up to 800 odd.
i visited KK, and the highest mountain in south-east
asia, mount kinabalu, which is 4095.2m tall.
i was only at 19xx m then i thought ok, im not going
further up anymore.
visited the hot springs, but it rained.
shop shop shop.
went internet cafe, but u know what? their portal
broke down. zz.
went back to gamble. lost 7++ . lol.
i did not have any luck AT ALL.
last day there.
woke up early in the morning.
visited i duno what, longhouse.
got 5 houses of different tribes.
the last one was really scary, they held knives
while spot checking us to see if we were carrying
anything and would shoot us with blowpipes if
we laughed as they were half naked only with
a short pants covering the fleshy parts of their
back. i could not even laugh. the knive was so
sharp. i was later told that they had to act like
this as they wanted people to know what it was
like in the past.
shopping. boring. did not buy anything.
night. internet still not working. holy cow!
gambled in the end. i reshuffled the cards,
as in packed everything as if it was new.
and yes, i recouped my losses, and won
about 4 ++ RM in a 2hour odd game.
cracked jokes. played 2.5 LOL
still learning but i won a few hands . haha.
enough said.
now. tired, but using my computer. lol..
most importantly, i missed darling super lots and lots
and lots. i only had 2 chances to call back to singapore.
and i sure made full use of it..
i was thinking of buying handicraft for darling,
but i did not in the end, as i did not shop that much,
and the things there were really ugly (pardon me).
handicraft also not nice, so i did not buy anything.
minitoons there is 3 times more expensive then
in singapore. HOLY COW ! if not i would have bought
the biggest toy.. if it was cheaper. lol ....
love, darling .
im at a lan nearby my budget hotel !!
what the fuck!! the room so cramped!!
i miss darling ~ u were not online..
im left with 155 secs...
i love you honey..
remember to message me..
i miss you..
i couldnt call u as my mom dun wanna lend
me her phone.
i saw a very nice beanie and i wanted to buy D:
will miss you darling..
ill come back on friday evening's flight.
once i reach sg, i will call you.
i might come online in the morning on friday.
tomorrow and thursday going touring
and sight seeing.
you must be at netball now right?
remember to rest early tonight.
love u. muackx x333.
today went to school study..
was walking back. then dear stood behind the wall and tried
to scare me. i wasnt shocked. so she said, must pretend lah.
okay, so i said, do it again. so she did it again. i screamed.
lol. we both laughed. so lame right..
im going for tuition now~~
will be in sabah from tomorrow to friday or saturday.
but i will be spending my night in malaysia as my flight
is at 7am at Senai Airport.
will miss dear :D love you muackx x33333333.
dun forget to msg me :D
today. i went with darling to her designated place. very far.
of course, i had done some research before hand, on what
bus to take, and how to get there by the fastest way.
and so, we met at amk mrt station's gantry and headed
towards buona vista. from there we had to walk quite
some distance, opp. buona vista mrt in front of NTU and MOE.
the bus we had to wait for over 20mins, and i was really quite
pissed off, as the weather was really warm. bus service 200
came and we boarded the bus..
we got off, quite deep inside, like forest like that..
then walked backwards AND THERE CAME THIS STUPID PART.
we climbed a slope for like 200meters. we were walking uphill!
both of our muscles really hurt... ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
great. when we finally walked on flat pavement, there were signs
that it was about to rain. nevertheless, we persevered and walked
further. then, this time, there was lighting. so we joked around,
we said, hey, cant 'persevere' le. ( one of the core values )
if persevere sure struck by lightning... because we still had over
an hour walk to finish. had we walked further in, i think i would
have become minced meat by now.
lightning, thunder. so dear said to me, ' we better run back now ' .
i was like oblivious to the surrounding, and i said, walk on lah.
that was when i know we had to walk on for another hour.
without further ado, we ran downhill. LOL
just now walk up so tough, then we were running down.
i thought to myself i was never going to go back up again. !!!!!!!
we took some photos there too ~
waited for bus so long.. and i saw the light flash past me...
lucky did not hit us.. there were lots of trees surrounding the
area.. okay enough about this ! something new, new experience.
then.. off we went to bukit batok, the place i stayed where i was
young.. due to some personal matters ( i dun wan to say ; only
some people know the real reason ) i moved to ang mo kio.
i was explaining to dear the various places at clementi, dover,
jurong east, and bukit batok.. muahaha..
examples are like, SP , IMM and West Mall.
we went to West Mall to have lunch.
guess what?
Fingers lickin' good. yup. very good.
it was darling's treat today, so i had my fill :D
thank me, kfc. im the biggest fan of chili. i ate 1/2 x 3 containers
of chili. the container was the one used to put mashed potato.
so if kfc's chili runs out fast, it might be me.. haha..
just joking. i haven been there for ages.... D:
i saw the chicken thigh.. very greasy.. looks like i will gain weight.
'toured' around West Mall. we walked from the 5th level to the
ground level.. visited shops and arcade, just to take a look.
Comics connection, Library too. i borrowed a book.
went to sports shop, dear wanted to see water bottle, but it
was too gigantic for her, so we dropped the idea.
then tom and stefanie :D the place where i bought my first few
soft toys there. i took a winnie and pooh balloon and posed
for darling to take a photo for me.. very funny~ so i do not want
to post it here.. walked around.. wanted to eat some korean ice
cream but it costs $3.50, so forget it i said...
off we went on our way home ~ i read the book i borrowed in
the train and there is this @%)*#)#* person who sat beside me
who was panting heavily and his fking mouth was so fking smelly.
i bet a thousand dollars that he had just smoked before entering
the train. when he sat beside me, he panted heavily, and i was
forced to take in his 'carbon dioxide' filled with the remains of
the smelly cigarette. i hate smokers, i can assure you to that.
fk that guy, luckily it was only 3 stops, if not i would have done
something about it.
got home. skipped dinner. rest. played awhile fifa online.
dad come back , cursing and swearing behind my back.
my mom told me he said that the reason i did not want to go
to malaysia was to play fifa online and to watch football.
bloody hell. get this right.
1. i got home at 7+ .
2. i had only played fifa only less than 45mins.
3. i did not watch the tv today after i switched the tv off last
night at about 11pm because i was so devasted that manu
were trashed by their fiercest rivals at home.
so i shouted. i said, since you doubt me, then dun everything ask
me to go to malaysia. everytime want go tell me go already,
i dun even have freedom at all. FUCKING BLOODY hell.
im taking my exams this year and you parents dun even care
about what is fucking right for me.
you decide everything for me and when i dun produce results,
you fucking hell scold me. why cant you people let me do what i
want and i will prove to you i have the brains for it.
fucking hell, i do your way without any freedom. all you do
is just to scold when things go wrong. you want everything to go
your way. and when its not your way, you curse and swear.
in the first place, why buy a house in malaysia? convinience?
then i tell you, its fucking not. each time you people tell me,
oh , we're going in in 10mins time, i get fucking pissed off.
you decide, when you feel like going, you say, when you feel like
not, well, that has never happened before.
LOOK. i have been a very good and understanding child already.i go in with you all without complaining. and what i get from youparents? bloody shit. you said i was at home whole day playing my computer games, watching television when i was out therealmost never going to return back home.BUT YOU ARE TELLING ME TO GO IN WEEKLY WITHOUT
FAIL. fuck. this is why i lament that i have no fking freedom at
all. like all my friends, who have to go in as well, they do not
go in weekly, they cant stand it.
i go in, feeling miserable, but do i have a choice? am i your child
or am i just like a guard dog ?
please . spare a thought for how i feel .
i cant sleep D:
ManUnited lost 1-4 at home to Liverpool...
argh.. what a fluke match...
when a person is stressed and lets his anger get the better of him,
then that person will burst like a balloon, and not realise what he
is doing. im still in a state of shock.
its really painful though.
today i do not have tuition as my tuition teacher is having
a sore throat. the owner of the center called me early in
the morning. had i known the outcome of this, i would
have applied for a fifa online 2 tournament which would
be held every 2weeks, and today also have..
i will be missing it because i did not apply for it,
and now i have to be at home... haix.
winner wins $200
2nd place 100$
3rd place 50$
i won the guy who won the 3rd place that day in a friendly
game.. but maybe that was luck. i won him twice though,
3-1 and 4-3 (at extra time)
i want to buy myself a new handphone... !!~~
selling everything i have in game :D
today was meet the parents' day. which was horrible.
i cried in front of my mom and miss ma. how embarassing.
BUT HORRIBLE LA. cos my dad always misunderstand,
then he will keep on think the wrong way then scold me..
very stressful~~
now i have headaches when i think too hard, in class,
in tuition too.. the only way for me to relax is to chill out
by eating chicken rice. or perhaps, a game of fifa..
oh yea..
love darling.
played soccer for more than 4hours for the past 4days!
damn tired now...
injured myself, my foot..
my hip was also injured by some uninvited people.
-.-
just my luck.
|
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
|
yesterday i smashed in a volley from a tight angle
in my team's 1-4 defeat, which takes my tally to
6 goals in 5 games.
I WANT TO CHANGE MY HANDPHONE!!!~~~
if i want to sign contract, i have to pay everything
my own, which includes monthly bills.
with my current low daily allowance, i better not..
hhaiis..
say like this, i said i wanted to work, then also dun
allow me. this cannot, that cannot, how can i ever
have what i dream of wanting? haix.
great, now we cant watch twilight, as it is already outdated in the cinemas.
Oh My Word ! This sucks.
i have the dvd for twilight, hotel for dogs.
i have yet to buy 'the curious case of benjamin button' and 'my bloody valentine',
which is m18. haha, i can buy them in malaysia.. they see my height they will
sell me de.. :D
so i guess, i will pass it to darling to watch it first, then ill watch it myself,
as i doubt as there is any other way that we can watch it together...
so , sad .. till then... hmmm...
its about to rain yea?
i hope the lads have a soccer ball, so that i can kick the ball later and score!
i have 5goals in 4games.. i want to add on!! when can we play matches ?? D:
back from malaysia..
2days..
slept at 11+ ytd while charging phone..
1+ woke up, unplugged, and went to bed..
9+ woke up ate nasi lemak..
parents had tournament...
so...
after eating.. wanted to watch twilight, but forget
it.. i want watch with my darling..
went back to bed.. 1+ wake up.. eat noodle..
cos no one at home...
went to sleep again... play handphone games...
6+ like that then wake up..
went to have dinner.
kinda traffic congestion at checkpoint so take
quite some time to come home..
and i duno why, suddenly got flu.
haix. turning in soon.
love darling . :D
this are my results as stated, mailed to me by world math day organisation.
Results:
| Joshua Y |
|
| Chong Boon Secondary School |
| High Score | 66 |
| Correct Answer | 35991 |
| Accuracy | 98.53% |
| Recent Avg | 53.20 |
| Games Played | 705 |
| Improvement Result | 38% | |
Each game played lasts for 60 seconds
World Maths Day 2009 was created and hosted by 3P Learning.
The game engine behind the event, is a small part of what 3P Learning
today i volleyed the ball very hard 9 times in the hall.
i almost broke the exit signs twice. haha.
i scored 2 times from long range... woohoo~
but it was not a match, just kick only....
i did not know that the WMD has the middle (secondary)
rankings for the top 100 in the world, and i was only like
1000+ shy of being in the top 100.. ahhhh...
never mind i'll try again next year..
hi , darling . i love you.. do you love me ?
muahahahaha...........
with all my love, joshua yeap !
hi all , im back to blogging.. i was laying down my life with the
world math day thing.. ahh... finally ended.. i finally can rest..
but i have tuition at 730! haix...
i did 35991 questions.. this morning i only had 27102.. muahaha..
an increase in almost 9,000.. if only i did not go to school...
then i would have been a serious contender challenging for the
top 50 spots in the world....
but its nice to have participated in it anyway (:
i have to play football soon! its been 2days since i last kicked the ball!
and i want to break my duck by scoring tomorrow!! ahhh...
i have not added on my record. D:
sadly..
lastly, thanks to darling, teachers and friends who gave me their
fullest support for my bid to chiong the world math day.
thank you guys, i promise i will come back stronger to challenge
for more next year, and i will break my personal record, of 35991.
sorry all for being MIA , as im chionging the world math day !
i have 25776 answered correctly to my name already.
i hope to reach my target by tomorrow, which is 30 , 000.
i have tried to break back into the world's top 50, but its very
difficult !! im already like , 14k behind, and they like share a/c de!!
mine is solo de leh................. ahhhhhhhh, very tired, i have to sleep .
i've done so much for you, sacrificed so much for you,
gave you everything you wanted. yet a little favour asked
by me, you sulked, as if it was very difficult to do.
was it or was it not ? you said no.
i did not even do anything in the remedial because i was
cursing and swearing. IF ONLY u did went up with me,
nothing would have happened. its just going to 4th floor,
and going back down. hey, netball starts as 3.30 like u said?
as if we are going up for 1hour ?
oh my word.
today is world math day, which will commence in 12mins time,
and i want to be top in chong boon, with the most questions
answered correctly. so i will chiong.........
watch out for me guys, im going all out~
happy 17th month darling :D
i'd promise to love you forever, just like i said these words to
you before..
we had lunch together today, and watched movie.
marley and me, very touching... lol..
today just dribbled.. never play soccer..
they guys were tired.. haix.
it rained so heavily today !! ):
tomorrow is the day ! :D
i love cheryl ng li jia honey !
