i have not seen dear for 57hours.
i have not seen her messages for 49hours.
yesterday and today was online most of the day,
but dear did not even came online once.
disappointed of course.
glad to hear that dear had fun outside today,
but i still feel that she needs to spend more time
with me too. i understand that she needs time
with her friends too, but, her time with me is too
little.. i hope she understands.. and will really do
something about it.. its really unfair to me, that
she spends very little time with me. and i feel
very, very sad. wild thoughts keep entering
my mind, good ones too, but mostly negative
ones. i wont name them. i hope those are not
true at all.
maybe im obssessed with dear now. i feel that
i cannot do anything without her now. but does
dear feel the same way? well, i leave it to her
for the answer..
dear, i hope that you will do something about
spending more time with me. i am really unhappy
about us having so little time together, and more
unhappy when you have more time with your
friends than me. i try to give in, calm down, but
that patience of mine will run out soon..
i do get angry, and calm down most of the time,
but no one can expect that to happen everytime.
i hope dear will do something about it, asap.
did not sleep well last night, dwelling in bed, i've expected.
i dun wan to stay in malaysia ever again, no one knows
and cares about the pain im suffering now. dear? having
fun outside.. and wont even give two hoots about me.
no time for me, dun care about me. great.
the great times have long been lost, and everything seems
to go out of my way. perhaps everything has already
been forgotten, i guess. things wont change...
i think to myself, perhaps you wanna let me go now.
im hurt, but i think, those will be the happiest days
of my life. perhaps, nothing can replace those memories
i have in me. im in tears again, but who cares? (:
i love you alot dear ! )))':
i dun wan to let it go. will you not? )))':
i have had enough. and enough is enough. when will you change?
jealousy fills my heart, really. why do girls always have time to go out with
anyone except their boyf. that is something which really bugs me day and
night. here am i, having to go through the experience of really no life in
malaysia, and there you will be, having fun outside. me? doing nothing the
whole day, really no life at all. do people really appreciate and cherish what
they have? or is it only when they lose them, is when they wake up, and
find out that they have been foolish. do people really have to part ways,
before they wake up? i am really at a loss of what to do now. i dun know
how i am going to pull myself together, and move on from here. each time
i say this, i really mean it. i dun promise nothing to anyone. but i cannot
predict the future either, no one can. actions speak louder than words.
i hope to see things being done, instead of just saying, saying, saying.
like i've said before, perhaps i am too sensitive, but can any guy not?
i felt my heart shattered at 9.45pm today.
i felt it difficult to pull myself together.
tears rolled down my eyes,
sorrowfulness felt in my heart
but no matter what, you'll never see me cry, all my life.
really boring in malaysia, whole day computer, but deardear never
came online... i waited since morning till now.. )))': had breakfast
in the morning then dad drove me to cousin's house, where i am
supposed to stay for 3days. when i arrived , 8+, cousin still sleeping
like a pig. dot dot dot. i read newspapers, got 2sets, i bought to keep
myself entertained. im currently at a lan shop now, had chicken rice
for lunch, although not nice, have to make do with it. later maybe
got people play soccer in the evening, so i will join them to see
whats singapore's style of soccer compared to malaysia. i played in
malaysia last 2weeks, and scored 8 goals in a game. cool, isnt it?
i have to learn how to shoot on goal accurately now. i have been
getting poorer and poorer, and my recent form is poor. when i was
in sec 1, i dun have to be invited to a second chance to score,
becuase i know i will just score from anywhere of the field, or
basketball court. but now.. my finishing touch is gone, now it takes
me chance after chance in a game to score a goal. i hope i can work
on it soon. if not it will affect my chances of playing football in the
national level. i want to play for singapore ! thats just a dream..
i have to control my diet ba. im eating alot. hhaiis.
I WANT BACK MY FINISHING TOUCH !!
currently missing deardear like hell !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHH. someone, help me !!!!!!!!!!
MONDAY MONDAY FASTER COME !!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH. )))':
will miss deardear like hell, i promise!
cant wait to go, and faster be back on sunday,
to come back in time for our 8th month on monday.
lucky me. will bring back more gums for darling, ill
try. my dad scold me for smuggling le ):
hhaiis, dun feel like sleeping tonight, malaysia my
handphone got no autoroaming, so cannot see
deardear's smses. last time can de, now cannot le.
im bringing the pooh that i caught for deardear, so
that i can hug in to bed at night, because, at night
only my cousin and me will be staying there for 2
nights! i bet its going to be gaming from morn-night
for 3whole days! just outside his house, got ppl play
soccer in the evenings, so im going to showcase my
talent tomorrow, but have to play barefooted,
their field sucks, i swear, many stones and many
sharp objects. i have to be careful, if i get cut,
deardear will feel the pain in her heart de. ):
im precious to her, (: this, i know! always known...~
listen to music till i sleep tonight ba...
thinking of darling now. ): missing her, cannot see
her really is a torture... monday faster come ! ))):
JYWC♥CNLJ ! yesterday, today, and forever ♥!
240days today, since that magical night, i have never
stopped loving you, and i know that i will never stop
loving you. each time i think of you, i go crazy!
and i'll never stop thinking of you, i promise.
you're the reason i live on,
eternity can't seperate this special bond, i promise.
if kisses were a raindrop; i'd give you showers.
if hugs were a second; i'd give you hours.
if smiles were water; i'd give you the sea.
if friendship was a person, i'd give you me.
if JYWC and CNLJ were meant to be together,
they will live to the end together. ♥
JYWC♥CNLJ.
02102007, 2222hrs.
that magical night,
will last forever.
ate mac with deardear today for lunch. dear dun want eat anything de,
maybe she scared she get fat, i dun know. i think she very thin, unlike
me, fatfat =X after that went out with vincent to shop, so went to shop
buy clothes, at first the person tell me 2 for 30. what 38++ discount le
32 then 30 give me for 2. so i thought 2 for 30, choose le paying time,
basket he tell me 30each, i paiseh so i just paid 60 for 2. the shirts not
that nice la! basket! i still wanna buy slippers, pants, wallet and many
more! i saw le, all very nice ones! but all very expensive ): about 22+
de. aiyoyo. sian sia, those money supposed to save for darling de. now
i one shot spent all, for what $^@#$%@$%@#$@#$@#%$@#$^@#
@#%#$%^#$^$%^#$^@$%!#%@%#$^#$%&@$&!@^@^@^@^@
zzz. i have to find ways for money! die-die also need more money!
if not i dun need to spend le~~~~~ sian sian sian ~~~~ someone
help me !! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
off for now, love darling. muacks <3333333.
so, once again, the day is saved... thanks to, the powerpuff girls!
gee, we've heard that before, time for something new. hahahah.
woke up quite early today, slept at 11plus night, but cannot
compare my sleeping timing to deardear, she slept at about
1.20am after giving me an sms, and i was already sound asleep.
i only saw the message at 4plus in the morning, and i found
myself rather lazy to reply. sorry dear ):
going out later, to shop for things, perhaps buy thing for dear.
i have already got one, but i will just see what's there to buy,
walk around, and perhaps go arcade. i dun wan to go msia
tomorrow! i will miss darling like hell, i promise ))):
My Dream Team (winning 11 9)
Manager : ME(duh~)
formation: 3-4-1-2
goalkeeper: Petr Cech
left-back : Patrice Evra
centre-back: Nemanja Vidic
right-back : Daniel Alves
left-wing : Arjen Robben
defensive-midfield: Owen Hargreaves
attacking-midfield: Paul Scholes
right-wing: Luis Nani
centre-forward: Wayne Rooney
right forward: Carlos Tevez
left forward: Cristiano Ronaldo (captain)
super subs: LuisFabiano, Anderson Oliveira.
i want to buy midfield and defensive players!
im scoring but im conceding! i won the wefa champions league
q-final : v barcelona. 1-1(away, ronaldo) 3-0(home, rooney 3)
s-final : v Man.United 2-0(home, ronaldo, tevez)
2-0(away, ronaldo, tevez.)
final : v Ajax ( i have lost to them twice in the group stages,
both matches home and away ending 2-0.)
4-0 on the night, ronaldo double, carlos tevez, and wayne rooney.
master league division A :
Played 30 Won 30 Drawn 0 Lost 0 GF 81 GA 7 GD +74
hope to improve on the next season.
im sorry too deardear ): love you ! (((:
wild dreams we have. and may all our dreams come true!
5more days, to our 8th month xD
im leaving singapore for malaysia to visit my sick grandpa
in ipoh, 600km off singapore. but i had a choice, to go, or
to stay with my cousin in johor. his house got air con,
internet, and many video, can whole day game! xDD.
but ipoh is hot, 40degrees celsius. i have already made
up my mind, to stay in johor with cousin, male. i'll miss
deardear but i'll be back on sunday. the first thing i will do
is to message her when i get back in singpaore, i promise.
have to pack up tomorrow, leaving singapore on friday
morning, 6.45am. i hope deardear misses me as well, as
i will. i will try to call back too. tomorrow have to go out
to shop, to see what can i buy for darling le. these few
days no time. i spent $7 today! i feel so guilty. those
money are part of buying something for deardear. i have
to save it back again. well, we'll see.
love deardear, now and forever.
our dreams will take us where we wanna go,
hold me now, touch me now,
and i dun wanna live without you.
nothing's gonna change my love for you.
there is a problem between us. - lack of time together.
i duno how to solve it, i've been trying and trying, but
nothing comes out of it. i would not say effort wasted
because when i really love someone, i will do anything
she tells me to, and do everything for her, as i promised.
but do i get the same in return? that i dun know.
just 6days away, and we are massing a massive problem.
everytime something happens, it takes time to heal the
wound, and im sure this time it will take a longer time
to heal my wound, it hurts me each time i think of it.
it hurts me deeply. have i not done enough in this
relationship? i save the best of everything just for you.
i know im sensitive and i get too jealous easily, but that
goes down to the wire, and the main reason is just
because i love you. i am in doubt, of the things going
to happen next. i am really in a loss. i dun know what
to do, and how to move on from here. i am a strong
person, but weak in the heart, i have to admit.
i can withstand any pain, but not those 'unbearable'
ones. i shall not name them. maybe im the only boy
who has to beg his darling to spend more time with him.
i was very happy for a few days, and this has to happen.
i want to carry on with this relationship, but i cannot
predict the future. prove me that long relationships do
last. otherwise, there will be a massive problem.
sorry for using harsh words.
im sorry, im not perfect.
im not a good boyfriend.
i cannot give you what you want.
i cannot give you the trust and security that you need.
im sorry.
well did not manage to post last night. they came back at 5pm,
angry, while my sister came back at 6.30pm, lol. of cause my
dad got very angry. we even went dinner without her. after
dinner, we went to search for a fan, my fan spoilt. thomson
plaza, sucks, i swear, alot of shops there, but no fan available.
went there till 8.50pm, came back to amk, courts, where i got
my fan for $99! the salesperson said the sound quiet de, but
when i slept last night, the sound was like, erm, running and
running. but i managed to get sleep finally, with fan. xD.
but i had a silly dream. i dreamt that deardear and i were
shopping in carefour or something like this, then as we were
walking then i saw a insane person holding a chopper chasing
people. he sliced someone's orange into 2 pieces. upon seeing
that, i got scared, and i dragged deardear out of there. funny
and lame isnt it? laugh all you want. hahahah.
anyone who got soccer games on, please invite me, give me a call.
sunday is always the boring day in every week, because i duno
what to do. i have been using the computer since 9am, and i have
not taken a break. there is really nothing to do for me. i want to
go out, but some people cant. i want to sleep, but i cant fall asleep.
i want to play soccer, but it rained. my parents stayed overnight
in malaysia, and there was no supper for me yesterday night.
well, i get hungry easily. my parents are coming home tonight
and i hope i get to eat 'zhu jiao fan' tonight, at thomson road,
or chicken rice, both serve good food. its been awhile since i last
ate them. perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
oppps.. parents are back, angry. will post again tonight.
spent $50 today, eating, and arcade. tried to catch pooh for
deardear for our 8th month anniversary present. i already
spent over $30 and have not caught it. but i told myself
i had to try, so the next few dollars, i pressed the button
and it stopped at fate, which brought it up directly, and
dropped down. so i caught the pooh for deardear. lucky me.
but not worth to spend so much money. well, its the thought
that matters ba. had beef noodles, rather full. that's all. (:
i hope that we can go out someday.. without the fear of
anything. i know the day will be sometime.. but i'll wait.
a torture not to see deardear. without her in my life is meaningless.
went down to play soccer with choon long, rhobin and zhong wei.
2 v 2. zhong wei and i v rhobin and choon long. guess who won..?
you've guessed it. zhong wei and i won.. obviously.. got me...
we won at the score of 47-43, like a rugby score, but it was a soccer
game, and i think i bagged 35 over goals out of 47. i have never seen
zhong wei play soccer, and i think that he is rather good, because
he dares to go for the ball even when he slips and fall, that is a good
character from a soccer player. but im very lucky though, i had more
than 5goals which i curled in from my own court and 3back-heeled
goals which hit the target, but i missed 2 of my own. well, that is
football. sometimes i miss, sometimes i score. i have been getting
slower and slower in terms of speed, i hope playing soccer can help
me gain back my confidence, as well as my stamina, i have been
losing my fitness, punctured for only 10minutes, but today's game
i play for over 1.5hours and i felt that i still can run, well, that is
a good signal for my return to form, i hope that can continue,
i dun wan another dismal performance again, in next year's
inter-house soccer. i have scored the only goal to bring green house
to the final before, but i have never tasted success in the final.
2009 be the year? we shall see, come 2009.
i love cheryl ng li jia deardear ! 8 more days only (:
but i know that i will love her forever, because we are bonded to
one another. i think there is a secret-pact between us, i have never
thought of leaving deardear, with her by my side day by day, i dun
think that i will even think of it. with her, its hard to think of it,
i reckon it as impossible to think of it though. there have never been
thoughts of leaving deardear. i pledge for her to be my last, and i
will never set eyes on any other girl. there is no speculation that im
in love with someone else as well, i have always loved cheryl ng li jia,
and always will. so people, dun think much about it (:
cheryl's the only one in my heart.
there is no way to break the secret-pact. never will.
i am really very very troubled. at home my bitchy mother
just come home only, guai lan guai lan me already. sipeh
guai lan. say i eat alot of food, wont die one meh? what kind
of mother i have? cant she be like my father? my father talks
to me nicely but she dosent. everything have to scold scold
and scold. im not a little kid anymore, cant she understand?
parents are supposed to provide their children with food,
im already scrimping to save, so why should i be scolded
for saving money? its really stupid, i get scolded for what
my sister does as well. everything me, so why is life like this?
i already have many things to worry. so why is this adding on
to my fucking burden? it really pulls my morale down alot.
talk cannot talk nicely one meh? why must scold? pardon
me for saying this, but i say this, has my mother been
brought up badly or what? one day when i cannot take the
pressure anymore, i will burst out, and i will scold all the
vulgarities that i can possibly scold straight in her face.
i am already facing alot of stress, and i duno how to cope
with them. life is just like this, cruel. i await the day,
estimated 1x years from now, will be the day where i will
not see my mother anymore, move out, and that's that.
at this rate, i cant stop myself from hating her, life is like
this. another thing im stressed over is deardear spending
too little time with me, and that's that too.
stress eh? bloody hell.
im afraid that deardear has no time for me as holidays are
approaching. im getting sad, when i come to think of it.
deardear got training, training, training, i really duno how
she will find time to spend with me, im sure she will, but
its going to be very little time, which i can die. i really need
more time, more time with deardear, own time own target
if possible, but is likely to happen. i really cannot stand days
without seeing deardear, or having her company.
come june 6, and i will wish for more time with deardear,
and her family to change their opinion of me, that im not
a bad boy. well, words dun prove anything. actions do.
one thing im upset about is deardear spends more time
on netball than on me. i always wonder to myself...
whether netball or me is more important to her.
i have no answer, i cannot imagine. sadded am i.
today is a happy day, thank god for the time given to
deardear and me (: at least, i feel today as the happiest
day that i have ever spent with deardear, and she feels
the same as well. we have very little time together, but
sometimes we do not make use of the time we have.
i feel that we should make use more of the time that we
have, which we did. and i hope that it will continue
whenever a golden opportunity is presented to us. i dun
ask for much, all i want is, more time with deardear.
i will be wishing for that on my birthday, and may it
be a dream come true, and last forever.
12 more days, getting closer and closer, cant wait for it.
i love cheryl ng li jia deardear (((: now and forever,
sim jiahua as my best female-friend. (:
not a day worth remembering. i must be just too playful.
how can i let these words 'i hate you' slip out of my tounge?
although i might get angry at times, real angry, but those
words should never come out of my mouth. i duno what
made me say that, but i hate people who break promises,
so i will do anything to appease myself. i know i should
not say such a diabolical thing like that, but i duno what
made me say such things, i wont do it again, but whats
done cannot be undone, what i can only do now is to
clear the remains by unfolding another new start to
change everything, those unhappiness.
i need someone to spend more time with me. but when
i look at deardear's schedule, its always packed, and
she really has no time for me at all. what i need is
someone who i can share my woes with, my sorrow,
my joy, my happiness. i need someone who can spend
really alot of time with me. it's really heartbreaking
when i have to endure times when i am alone, and
really, it is miserable, the feeling. it is not a say-so.
i do not know how to move on from here, i just hope
that i can have more time with deardear, because
no time together is diabolical. i just hope that she
can spend more time with me whenever she can,
but if she cant, i also will sian and sad lor ):
i feel that i get too jealous easily when she talks to
boys, and im over-sensitive for small things. is it
the jealous side of me, or is it i love deardear too
much that i get jealous over the smallest things?
well, that is just a claim from me, i duno why it
is like this, but it is like this. i know to stay away
from a boy-free environment is absolutely
impossible, but thats the way i am, thats me.
i get tensed and jealous easily. well, thats me.
i dun give two hoots about what love is. i only recognise one.
it goes like this... ' love was made for joshua yeap wei chia
and cheryl ng li jia.' the rest does not matter anymore.
okay, back in singapore, loved as missed deardear so much.
bought back 3 bottles of chewing gums, 2 are reserved, so
left with one. i bought 2 strawberry, and 1 sweetmint, never
tried sweetmint before, so im taking that. left 1 strawberry
de, who wants just tell me, first come first serve basis, no
come no serve. hmm, how to determine who comes first,
send me a text message! ;D dun have my number, then
i cant help le, sorry. =X i messaged deardear the first
thing i got back into singapore, but im still waiting for her
reply, maybe she is still asleep, i duno. =X i have a piggy
deardear. ;D she sleeps and sleeps de. dun tell her hor,
if not she chase me with a chopper again ): i sometimes
have nightmares of her chasing me with a chopper. ):
but deardear cares alot of me too, despite sleeping alot,
that is a good thing! im so fortunate to have such a good
deardear like her lor. (: so guys, if you're jealous, hands
off. because i will not hesitate to decapitate you, i will
jump on you till you are flat, and then i will slash you
1000 times, and then i will burn you, and make sure
you die a horrible death, more than anyone can imagine.
ooops, i think i got carried away, but good boys dun tell
lies. im an example of a good boy. xD
once a notorious boy, not always a notorious boy, and
will never become one again. since 02102007, 2222hrs,
joshua yeap wei chia has become a good boy, and will
always be one! ;D
2more weeks, to our 8th month, looking forward to
that day. the countdown has just begun.
okay, now at cousin's house in malaysia. i cannot recieve smses
becasuse there is no autoroaming, i duno what the heck of the
service starhub offers. i did not recieve deardear's messages
today, not even one, so i have to wait till tomorrow to go back
to singapore to read her messages. )': i miss deardear terribly,
i hope time can go past faster, cause it is like hell for me here,
very humid here too. then tomorrow go back to singapore,
can message deardear le ;D okay, so i can see her on tuesday.
but now, i really miss her alot alot okay. i will try to smuggle
chewing gums for her too, anyone who wants chewing gums,
or whatever, just leave a message in my tagbox, so that if i
happen to see it, i will help to buy.
to cheryl ng li jia deardear: please miss me because i miss
you alot too ;D i hope that you see this, and you will be
recieving an sms from me later. well you might not see this
today, but, well, its okay. you know that i love you de right?
i also know that you love me alot alot okays. hmm, bhb =X
but thats me ! 229 days today, and still going on as strong
as ever, because we have the strongest bond in the world,
having faith in each other. cheryl ng li jia deardear trusts
me alot alot , and i trust her alot alot too.
well, that is the strongest bond, having faith in your loved
ones. i'll be missing you.
oh ya, for those missing me, please dun, if not my deardear
will get jealous de kays. ): dun tell her this, because she will
take chopper chase after me de (:
today went out with zhongwei, rhobin, went catch stitch
for deardear at bishan arcade, i spent $4x tio kosong.
sian sia, sad sad ='( lol 3more days to see dardar. =(
cant see her , life is miserable.
i love cheryl ng li jia , now and forever ;D
the strongest bond in the world is to have faith in your loved ones.
do you agree with my point of view? well, it remains controversial.
i do think that my point makes sense though.
however, i have very much to learn from that.
so done and dusted, my examination results came back today.
the first three ones were great, then the bad ones after recess.
what a tale. i think this is the first time that i have done so well.
english: paper 1 44/60 paper 2 54/80. so its a 70%, just nice A.
i could have gotten 64/80 for paper 2, just too careless.
dnt: 34/40, godly, amazing, total ownage. it is an 85%.
POA: well, generally well, 54.5/80, the paper was quite tough
though. it gives me 68%. well, not bad.
SS: 21/30. which is 70%. could have gotten higher marks!
chinese: listening 30/60 and paper 25.5/70. ok this one is a
cracker. i have never passed chinese under the guidance of
'ahem'(we know who) for 3 years running, i have been failing,
so i dun really bother much.
chemistry: 24.5/50. i have never passed my science though,
but i think the paper was easy, had i put in more effort, i would
have gotten a better grade.
geography: the paper has not been given back, but i was told
by my ss teacher that i got 10/25 , which is pathetic. i admit
that i did not study, but, well, i deserve 10 for not studying.
you promise, promise and promise. you tried to change and
change for me. yes, you did, but it is not going on consistent.
why are your friends always more important than me? one
thing i hate most is, promises to me are broken, and once in
a while it has to happen like this. i always tell myself, i have
to do something to salvage the situation, but does it even
get appreciated? does it help? i tried everything that i can
do to salvage this relationship, but if there is no co-operation
between us, nothing can save us, only ourselves, and the
determination in us. all i can say is honour your word.
i get annoyed with people who break promises.
need i say more?
okay had real fun today. well, at least it helped me to manage
my stress. im not emo, and will never, im just stressed.
i think people who emo, and cut themselves are stupid.
cutting does not help, so why do people cut themselves?
do they think that it is cool or something like this? i think
people who cut themselves deserves a place beside chong
boon. automatic spot. but actually, pathlighters are very
smart people, is just that they cannot control their emotions.
they are very much talented, if they can control their
emotions, they will be undoubtedly one of the best around
the society. china just got affected with an earthquake,
with a magnitude of 8.5 . it is very scary. let me give you
a scenario. imagine that you are one of the survivor, okay,
or rather, imagine your loved ones dying in front of you,
how would you feel? i cannot even bear to think about it.
we, singaporeans, are very lucky not to experience
earthquakes, but people from the other parts of the world,
experience these natural disasters. i shall rephrase it, sorry.
people living in singapore will not experience it. anyway,
im a PR. i can hardly imagine, what can happen if i lose
deardear one day. well, hard to imagine, i dun even dare
to think of it. it makes me, er, you know, scaring myself
out of my wits. LOL. i hope that survivors of the quake,
will be able to get on with life, even though they lost their
loved ones, although it will be hard to, but, they should go
on and on. well, i believe they will.
as the saying goes, 'success belongs to the determined.'
determination is the key to our successes. ")
225 days together now, and still counting day by day.
once in love with you, always in love with you.
promises ARE not meant to be broken, well,
only in the Joshua Yeap theory. ")
i am early today ~~ @.@ i woke up at 6.45am when it is a school
holiday. amazing. did not feel like sleeping though. its bored to
stay at home. -.- sian, sian, sian, sian, sian ! ARGHHS. i dun want
to stay at home. but so early, where can i go? hmm.. breakfast?
good idea. the most only 10minutes, im a fast eater you know.
staying at home, boring boring boring la. what can i do? play
computer games? the most only 2hours, what can i do? i quitted
maple, nothing else to game. so all i can do is, sit and stare at the
screen. getting jealous, you know. pardon me, but most people
have, but i dun. its nothing to be jealous of actually, but i am.
thats me. well, i wasnt even over the moon when manunited,
my favourite club won the title. i was filled with jealousy. do
not ask ne what was it, as my lips are sealed.
staying at home is bored, makes it boring and it is boredom.
yesterday, today, forever, my love for CNLJ darling
remains the same. all may change, but my love for her
nevers. i promise. wo ai ni , CNLJ darling !
someone stole my darling's phone today.
not stole, but indirectly refused to return.
darling was hold her phone, and i think she dropped it.
so i messaged darling's number : ' this is a lost phone.
if found, please kindly call xxxxxxxx (my number). it
will be kindly appreciated'.
moments later, i recieved a call, i was peeing so i could
not pick it up. i was shocked to see, darling's number
on the screen of my phone. i thought she had found her
phone, but she said she did not. i kept calling, and i
realised that the phone had been switched off.
singapore has produced another scumbag, one who is
dishonest, despite knowing that it is a lost phone, he/she
still refused to give it back. i hate this kind of people.
i swear. if i ever find out, who stole darling's phone,
i swear i will whack that person till his/her mother
cannot recognise him/her. it made me so damned pissed
to see darling so sadded today.
sorry darling . it was all my fault you lost your phone.
had i not decided to go to his house, nothing would have
happened. sorry, sorry, sorry.
wo ai cnlj laopo. <3. now, and forever!
I AM VERY HAPPY THESE FEW DAYS !
DARLING HAS MADE ME SO HAPPY !
i feel that we CANT SEPERATE FOREVER!
we are going to be together forever.
dun say i have not told you, for the facts are there !
AI AI AI AI AI AI AI AI AI AI AI DARLING !!
218 days , and still going on solid .
Manchester United 4-1 West Ham .
Manu: Ronaldo 4' 24' Tevez 26' Carrick 58'
Whu: Ashton 28'
i have absolutely nothing to say today. diasppointed.
anyone will be happy of a 7th month date with his girlfriend.
not me. im very upset with the way things turned out today.
when i see couples very loving in the streets, i will always ask
myself, why cant i have it also? im very jealous though. even
when i took the initiative to move towards you, i was rejected
not once, but twice by you. what took place was just a classic
of a controversial situation. things turned out very pathetically
today, not on the eve of the date, but the day on itself.
anyone in my shoes would surely feel disappointed.
i tried and tried and tried, but its still like this. forget it.
2nd may 2008, a day where all my despair will live in the day.
