hardly slept a wink last night. had a tiff with dear. it was really
a small matter, but i chose not to forgive her, which lead to all
the things that happened. had i been more patient, and more
forgiving, maybe nothing would have happened at all. although
i wept for the first time in 10months, it will not salvage the
situation. whats done cannot be undone. i have to admit that
i was really harsh with my words, but i only wanted time alone.
then i got the reply, maybe you will find a better gf than me,
maybe it is better that we are friends, the memories will stay
with me forever, so on and so fourth. i have never thought this
way. maybe it was a misunderstanding, but one thing that
cannot be changed is that we both hurt each other, but i believe
that i was the one who started it. maybe im not as good as she
thinks. although people listening to the story, might think that
someone else is at fault, but i cannot say like this. how am i to
go up to the person and say, oi your fault la. u cause everything.
so now, i dun even know what state we are in. friends, or maybe
something else? im in doubt. honestly. she says she will consider
about it. maybe all things are hard to change, the pain will take
a very long time to heal.
but one thing i believe that i will never change.
> she will never walk alone.
i'm sorry about all the things i said to you.