i have not seen dear for 57hours.
i have not seen her messages for 49hours.
yesterday and today was online most of the day,
but dear did not even came online once.
disappointed of course.
glad to hear that dear had fun outside today,
but i still feel that she needs to spend more time
with me too. i understand that she needs time
with her friends too, but, her time with me is too
little.. i hope she understands.. and will really do
something about it.. its really unfair to me, that
she spends very little time with me. and i feel
very, very sad. wild thoughts keep entering
my mind, good ones too, but mostly negative
ones. i wont name them. i hope those are not
true at all.
maybe im obssessed with dear now. i feel that
i cannot do anything without her now. but does
dear feel the same way? well, i leave it to her
for the answer..
dear, i hope that you will do something about
spending more time with me. i am really unhappy
about us having so little time together, and more
unhappy when you have more time with your
friends than me. i try to give in, calm down, but
that patience of mine will run out soon..
i do get angry, and calm down most of the time,
but no one can expect that to happen everytime.
i hope dear will do something about it, asap.