im utterly disappointed today . really . the anger in me is
boiling and no words can express the anger in me.
what happened has really cause my heart to shatter .
when will you care for me ? when will you spend more time
with me ? it has been fucking hell long time since we went
out together. all these might be small things, but they mean
alot to me. i understand we need to play at times, and have
fun. but having fun until im like transparent to you, is
totally unacceptable and really, preposterous. there has
been many occasions already happened like this. i really
hate the feeling being caught between the small crisis.
i always tell myself to relax, but i cant. it happens very often.
why cant we be like the past? where we just go out together.
why is it that when there are you friends, everything
changes. jealously, u might want to call it. but im really pissed
off when you have time for your friends but not with me.
why is it that you can share everything with your friends but
not with me? why am i being treated differently? i always
come to a point where i have to think, do you love me anot?
i know you do, but each time you do this to me, i really feel
very uncontrolled and very upset. i break into tears. i really
dun understand why im always rated behind your friends.
i really hate being caught in between and when i really have
to think that way. i dun want to, but your actions made me
feel that way. similar incident the other day, where you were
playing basketball and neglected me. you said you would
change for me, you dun wan me to be upset, you said that
you would spent more time with me. but how many times
did that happen? and why did it have to happen today?
im really pissed off and upset. and no words can express
the feeling in me now. i dun wan this to happen every now
and then. each time this happens, i really feel like you do not
love me at all, because you do not show any care for me at all.
i wanted to go to you, but you were having fun yourself, and
really did not care about me at all. you only start to show
your care for me, when you are told to do so. i dun wan it
to be like this. why must it when you are told then only
you will start to show? i really dun get it. fucking hell
pissed off.
people, you might think that im selfish and have bad temper
after reading what you have read above. but, read back again,
this has happened on many occasions, time after time , chance
after chance, day after day, and i have every reason
to be angry. read back again, and you will understand, what
i really need, and what really lies in me. read back again,
you might understand that im not selfish after all.

currently feeling very dejected and pissed off.
Reason being why must it happen everytime?
Why was there no amendments made?
I really want to cry everything out. Really very sad.

*FUCKING HELL EMO-ING IN PROGRESS*
please do not FUCKING disturb the FUCKER.

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Honey is my love, my life, my everything.
Love darling, higher than the skies above,
deeper than the oceans,
and wider than the universe!
02102007, 2222hrs was that magical night,
and the night will never end.
It's a PROMISE !

Whoever insults darling,
will die horribly.
In the name of joshua!
AND my name work wonders.
I can assure to that. ") try me.
triple dare.



1.Love darling more and more
2.Old handphone to function!!! all the messages she sent me are in there!!
3.Wants to show concern, but don't want to hurt her
4.Wants to show that i care, but am afraid of wrong approach.
5.Hopes she will not even rule out the possibility to reconcile in the future.
6.Wants to watch movie with her
7.Wants to embrace her in my arms ever again
8.Wants to show love, care and concern to her.
9.Wants to do everything that i can to win her heart back.
10.Hopes that the op is not needed!!!!
11.Hopes that she will gain back confidence in r/s
12.Hopes that she still has an affection for me
13.Hopes that somehow, someday, she will come back to me.




no hates at the moment. love thy neighbour, love thy enemy, says the bible.



when i update my blog, i will put a word randomly daily.. whoever guesses it first, shall win something from me. eg: Joshua < 4 > has < 9 > for a start, it shall be 17 words first.

Our Love Will Live Forever! !

2nd October 2007 ♥
CherylNg {3 JoshuaYeap

If rain drops were kisses,
I will send you showers.
If hugs were seas,
I will send you oceans.
And if love is a person,
I will send you me! :D

Written on 020909
HAPPIEEE 23rd months anniversary my dear! :D
All i need is YOU.
I lurve euuuuuuuu Joshuayeap hubby!(: <3!

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Joshua yeap's,
Cheryl Ng

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