anyone in a relationship who has hit 199 days would be something
to be proud of. not me. i have already given up. at this rate we
are going, we'll never reach what we were in the past. again and
again you promised, disappointment after disappointment for me.
you promised me that you'll have more time for me. you promised
that you will not leave me behind. nothing was fufilled. we have
been together for 199 days, im very sure you understand my
character very well. ever since 4th march we went out, no other
day can match even 10% of what we were in the past, can any?
ever since, everyday was dull and everyday got conflict. its very
sickening. tiring to go on like this. i really dun know whats the
problem. i have already done my ways and means. i sacrificed
everything i had, just to spend more time with you. what do i
get back in return? being rejected and disappointed for my
efforts. is what i have done not enough? i give in to you mostly.
i always have to give in. arent i your boyfriend? i have to admit
ever since that day, i have never felt happy for once at all. you
always treat your friend better than how you treat me. if im
just a playing toy, just tell me so. couples who have been
together for 199days, will not be shy. on the eve of our 200th
day milestone, things had to turn out like this. disappointment
has become my very good friend. everyday i experience it.
i hate the way that your friends are more important than me,
and i somewhat feel that they are of influence to you. you
always tell me, do this do that. i followed, never once without
a friend. why must there be friends everytime? friends are
friends. correct. then me? cant we go out like what we used
to do in the past? why is it that everything has changed for
us now? at this rate, it will send not just me, anyone in my
state of mind, will go berserk. i know i cant help the situation,
but i already gave in each time, i tried my best to bring life
into the relationship, but there is nothing that can be done.
i hate the way things turn out. we have a conflict every 2-3
days, im getting tired of this. there has never been one day
where we can enjoy ourselves. expressions do not tell lies.
it dosent take a genius to know how someone is feeling.
i accept that love is like this, forgiving and patient.
but i have already given in everytime i possibly can, and
it has come to a stage where i feel that im been taken
advantage of, each time i give in. i really have no patience
to wait anymore to get back to what we used to be in the
past. each time we get this problem, im always afraid to
read your messages. im afraid that you wanted to break.
i have never been afraid of anything, not even when i
was in the darkest periods of my life. yet, im afraid of a
sms. how silly. but its a fact, im sure at this rate, you do
not want to go on as well. im not saying that i do not love
you. what im saying is that, i do not feel loved by you.
saying and showing are 2 different things. anyone given
a choice, would definitely back me up, by choosing being
shown love and not being told. time is really running out
for us. we better do something, before it draws its
terminal breath. think over it...

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Honey is my love, my life, my everything.
Love darling, higher than the skies above,
deeper than the oceans,
and wider than the universe!
02102007, 2222hrs was that magical night,
and the night will never end.
It's a PROMISE !

Whoever insults darling,
will die horribly.
In the name of joshua!
AND my name work wonders.
I can assure to that. ") try me.
triple dare.



1.Love darling more and more
2.Old handphone to function!!! all the messages she sent me are in there!!
3.Wants to show concern, but don't want to hurt her
4.Wants to show that i care, but am afraid of wrong approach.
5.Hopes she will not even rule out the possibility to reconcile in the future.
6.Wants to watch movie with her
7.Wants to embrace her in my arms ever again
8.Wants to show love, care and concern to her.
9.Wants to do everything that i can to win her heart back.
10.Hopes that the op is not needed!!!!
11.Hopes that she will gain back confidence in r/s
12.Hopes that she still has an affection for me
13.Hopes that somehow, someday, she will come back to me.




no hates at the moment. love thy neighbour, love thy enemy, says the bible.



when i update my blog, i will put a word randomly daily.. whoever guesses it first, shall win something from me. eg: Joshua < 4 > has < 9 > for a start, it shall be 17 words first.

Our Love Will Live Forever! !

2nd October 2007 ♥
CherylNg {3 JoshuaYeap

If rain drops were kisses,
I will send you showers.
If hugs were seas,
I will send you oceans.
And if love is a person,
I will send you me! :D

Written on 020909
HAPPIEEE 23rd months anniversary my dear! :D
All i need is YOU.
I lurve euuuuuuuu Joshuayeap hubby!(: <3!

Love,
Joshua yeap's,
Cheryl Ng

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