Joshua has been dead ever since.

if you ask me, im afraid of the op. i'm afraid of the unbearable pain .

Going hiatus for a few weeks before the results are out..
Till then,
Joshua.


I dont text u that much and I dont see you as often as i’d like to, its true, but that doesn’t stop me from thinking of you. I want you to know you’re too nice to forget and i’ll always be glad that you and i met. for you are that unforgettable kind with a special place in the heart and mind..
With that said, your dearly missed..

no deployment next week... D:
it should have been me spending time with her. =/

50 things that i know about Cheryl Ng.

Born in 1994 (1) , October 6th (2) , 15 this year (3) ,
loves lime green and gu jun pyo (5,6) , enjoys fried
food (7) , espically chicken (8) - chicken chop (9) ,
chicken cutlet (10) , chicken thigh (11) . can do without
the meat (12) but enjoys the skin of the fried chicken (13) .
does not like chili but if there is no other sauce,
chili will do fine (14) . loves french fries alot (15 ) . no
chili sauce in macdonalds (16) , only myonaise mixed
with curry ( stir well . ) - (17) . prefers chicken wings > burger (18)
but dont miss out on the skin portions. enjoys playing ball games (19)
espically netball (20) , basketball? (21) and badminton (22).
basically any sports.
enjoys going to movies with her loved ones (23) , and sitting down
talking and laughing over silly things (24) . likes to drink bubble tea (25).
does not like to read newspapers (26) but prefers Teenage magazines (27).
Prefers noodles>rice (28) . Ban-mian is one option (29) .
must not have vegetables in her meals , not even cucumbers (30)
no onions or beans (31) . Likes tangyuan (32) . Does not like to go home
early (33) . very focused in everything she does (34) . when she likes
something, she will like it for a long time, being very faithful (35) .
a very nice person (36) . needs at least 10hours of sleep a day (37) ,
dosent wake up once asleep until at least 8 hours (38) . does not like
going hungry (39) . Likes ghostly stuff (40) and korean dramas (41) .
ghost shows are favourites (41) . Likes to blog hop (42) .
does not like to be upset (43) , angry (44) the feeling of losing
something (45) . never make her loved one worry for you (46) and
does not like to be irritated (47). most important of all, never ever
ever betray her trust in you (48) . Smart (49) and respectable (50).

50 will do. :-)

Dear Joshua,
say all you want now, im sure you know it's virtually over. :-)

Yours Sincerely,
Joshua Yeap.
& dont worry, She Will Never Walk Alone.

Take fate by its neck , or let fate take you by your neck , Joshua

DEAR Joshua ,
You once commented that she was the best girl anyone
could have.
Well, indeed she was and she also happened to be a very
patient and forgiving one.
She recognised your mistakes, a spirited loss, and she is
also able to identify a totally unforgivable mistake when you did
one.
For a start, she was always behind any thing that you did,
but for once, she had enough of your mistakes. It was you who
did not understand the significance of cherishing her.
You once said that loving her isn't a matter of life and death,
it's much more important than that.
Which is why you did so much and it hurts badly - it is the
knowledge that your love story, no matter what anyone says now,
is virtually over.
I sincerely wish to see you being hammered by the final nail to put
you in your coffin and send all your hopes and dreams crashing.

DEAR Joshua,
You said that you would never leave her nor forsake her.
Yet you forsaked her.
Where were you when she needed you most? Where were
you when she longed for you most? This is a question only you
can answer.
If you are telling us that you wish to love her forever, well,
let me remind you that this is the Earth, this is where there
are many girls out there.
It is safe to say that your ancestors will all rise from their
graves in anger should you ever disappoint them again.
The final straw was not when you waited for her outside
the school for hours - despite being patient - but when your
shout embarrassed everyone when there was still hope that
she will still love you.
It shows how much you wanted her back. Other boys would
have waited patiently, and wait for her response. Yet you took
things in your own hands.
Are you telling everyone that you have no options left?
Well, who was the one who made her angry and upset
for no apparent reason?
Who was the one who was with her whenever she was down?
I'm horrified, this is a complete travesty that can only
be resolved by two methods.
1) You take fate by its neck
2) You let fake take you by your neck

Yours sincerely
Joshua Yeap
She will never walk alone.

because i didnt do what you feared i would do,
and what you always feared all along :-)
after all 3>2.

thanks brothers, friends :-)


and for those who told me don't bother trying that
day, i wont blame you if you decide to tell me,
'' See, i told you so . '' now . thanks. :-)

so said the person who said... :-)

He takes you out and he takes you up,
cause he can show you so much.

I go to bed and tomorrow again,
there's alot of work to be done.

He gives you gold and he'll promise you,
the whole World will be yours.

I just can tell you i love you so,
even though my odds are low.

I'm not an actor, I'm not a star.
And i don't even have my own car.
But i'm hoping so much you'll stay.
That you will love me anyway.

The dirty games and the neon shows.
This is the world he knows.

Watching the stars satisfies my soul,
thinking of him makes me feel so cold.

The fancy cars and the restaurants,
you're just so fond of the man.

Sometimes i wonder if you are blind,
cant you see? he's got dirt on his mind..

I'm not an actor, I'm not a star.
And i don't even have my own car.
But i'm hoping so much you'll stay.
That you will love me anyway.

well, that's that .. i 've tried ...

i just don't know what to say now ...


now, i hope you know why i didnt like
you messaging him at all...
why i got angry over it so easily...
i always feared it... really i did..
why do this to me ?

i never ever agreed to a break up...

it's come back, to be the truth now...

if fate brings us back again someday , i hope
that you will remember how much i loved you.

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Joshua Yeap Wei Chia aka zAki
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CherylNgLiJia's.
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Honey is my love, my life, my everything.
Love darling, higher than the skies above,
deeper than the oceans,
and wider than the universe!
02102007, 2222hrs was that magical night,
and the night will never end.
It's a PROMISE !

Whoever insults darling,
will die horribly.
In the name of joshua!
AND my name work wonders.
I can assure to that. ") try me.
triple dare.



1.Love darling more and more
2.Old handphone to function!!! all the messages she sent me are in there!!
3.Wants to show concern, but don't want to hurt her
4.Wants to show that i care, but am afraid of wrong approach.
5.Hopes she will not even rule out the possibility to reconcile in the future.
6.Wants to watch movie with her
7.Wants to embrace her in my arms ever again
8.Wants to show love, care and concern to her.
9.Wants to do everything that i can to win her heart back.
10.Hopes that the op is not needed!!!!
11.Hopes that she will gain back confidence in r/s
12.Hopes that she still has an affection for me
13.Hopes that somehow, someday, she will come back to me.




no hates at the moment. love thy neighbour, love thy enemy, says the bible.



when i update my blog, i will put a word randomly daily.. whoever guesses it first, shall win something from me. eg: Joshua < 4 > has < 9 > for a start, it shall be 17 words first.

Our Love Will Live Forever! !

2nd October 2007 ♥
CherylNg {3 JoshuaYeap

If rain drops were kisses,
I will send you showers.
If hugs were seas,
I will send you oceans.
And if love is a person,
I will send you me! :D

Written on 020909
HAPPIEEE 23rd months anniversary my dear! :D
All i need is YOU.
I lurve euuuuuuuu Joshuayeap hubby!(: <3!

Love,
Joshua yeap's,
Cheryl Ng

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